Today I saw a name "尚德" and "尚善", so I thought I had been some restaurant at someplace. I doubt about myself. I don't think I am nice and fair.
I know the world is falling, but I really don't know how to adjust it and take back the normal world again.
2009年3月24日星期二
2009年3月23日星期一
Cold night
I am in Beijing, and awake. But I still am not clear.
I told myself, no gmail, no blog, no CCHere, then I can't get any information about him. So maybe I can be clearer and clever.
No, I am still confuzed about all the things. Though I know all are passed with him, I still felt disappointed and sad. I am so disappointed to myself and my behaviors.
I am rude, selfish, stupid, impulsive.
I had spoken so much sorry and hurting rude words at the same time, now I feel so shy about myself.
Last week I joined the examination in CAS, it's a cruel course to me. It still passed.
Beijing became a little blue and cloudy to me, not like last year.
I know now I am at a crossroads. I want to get a better and clear answer from myself.
I told myself, no gmail, no blog, no CCHere, then I can't get any information about him. So maybe I can be clearer and clever.
No, I am still confuzed about all the things. Though I know all are passed with him, I still felt disappointed and sad. I am so disappointed to myself and my behaviors.
I am rude, selfish, stupid, impulsive.
I had spoken so much sorry and hurting rude words at the same time, now I feel so shy about myself.
Last week I joined the examination in CAS, it's a cruel course to me. It still passed.
Beijing became a little blue and cloudy to me, not like last year.
I know now I am at a crossroads. I want to get a better and clear answer from myself.
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